She Says: Pity Party, Party of One.
Well, thanks again (on Mark’s behalf) for your kind thoughts about his Grandma.
I left Queens last night to get back for school today. I don’t want to complain about my travels given the circumstances, but man am I worn out. I drove from R.I. to N.J. to Queens and back to R.I. in a little less more 24 hours! There were car accidents everywhere in Connecticut, so it took nearly 5 hours to get back home (usually takes 3.5 or 4). I had no time to rest, sleep or prepare for the week and I am definitely not ready for the week. I hate that feeling.
The school where I’m student teaching is a little untraditional, so there is no set curriculum or lesson plans in place to rely on. Everything is done from scratch. Sometimes it’s a little difficult to come up with some wonderful lesson idea for every subject. I often get lesson plan writer’s block and it stinks. The teachers at the school are all brilliant and excellent and there is a little pressure associated with being observed everyday. I just remind myself that I enjoy it and that it’s nothing like the lawyer hell I lived in before. Then I try to move on, but just so everyone knows, teaching is not all about singing happy songs and recess. Alright, I’ll stop complaining now. No one likes a wining food blogger.
I am in such a funk lately and I really don’t have anything interesting to share. Oh, we’re pushing the new blogging challenge back a week so Mark can have some time to go to the store to buy actual food.
Here is my lunch and snacks for today. I’ve never had that bar, but I am such a fan of bananas that I can’t imagine I’ll be disappointed.
And a bag of too small clothes that depress me. I am giving them away per Jenn’s example.
Hopefully once I get going today I’ll feel a little better, but right now I feel like going back in my bed and sleeping for about 12 hours. I know I need some good, clean food (like an actual fruit or vegetable) and a run or something. It’s so interesting to me how a couple days of being inactive affects my mood. I need to come up with an exercise equivalent for the word “hangry” that means the gross, agitated, slumpy shoulderfeeling one gets from not exercising for several days.
Well, hope everyone has a good Tuesday. I promise to be in a better mood soon.
October 14th, 2008 at 6:55 am
exercizornery?
grumpercize?
totally get what youre feeling—-hope today is brighter.
October 14th, 2008 at 7:09 am
Hey Heather – I, too, totally understand what you mean. It’s hard not to complain via blog, when there is nothing else better to write about. I was going through that a few weeks ago. We just had a great weekend, and work isn’t too brutal, so my mood has improved greatly. Give it a day or two and I’m sure yours will as well!
Have a great Tuesday.
Sarah
October 14th, 2008 at 7:23 am
Heather, I’m praying that today (Tuesday) is MUCH better for you – hang in there, and keep your chin up!
October 14th, 2008 at 8:29 am
I hope today gets better- and if it doesn’t, tomorrow is a whole new day!! I take for granted how good exercise, sleep and healthy foods make me feel until I have a few days without them.
October 14th, 2008 at 8:42 am
I always say I feel “ickyickypoopoo” when I don’t exercise for a few days, but I’m sure you don’t want to use that hahahaha.
cheer up heather! it’s a sunny day! sending some marshmallow clouds and candy rainbows your way!
October 14th, 2008 at 8:43 am
oh! and actually, i think the best way to get out of a funk is 1. realllllly feeeeeeel the funk. let yourself get into it so you get over it fast and 2. lots of rest! and 3. a good, clear-your-mind run!
October 14th, 2008 at 9:20 am
Don’t worry about whining – we all have those days. I’m glad you share it on the blog – it shows other bloggers that not every day is perfect for every person. So I appreciate the honesty.
And way to go on throwing out the too-small clothes. I know I need to do the same thing with a couple pairs of jeans I’ve been holding on to.
October 14th, 2008 at 9:24 am
I hope your day goes better Heather. Hang in there, it can always be worse. get some rest and keep smiling.
zesty
October 14th, 2008 at 9:40 am
I can relate to those types of weeks. Hang in there!
October 14th, 2008 at 9:45 am
Don’t apologize for the funk- you’ve had a stressful few days! Hopefully you’ll feel better once you get back into your routine. I always get grouchy when my schedule is thrown off like that (hello, Type A).
Please do let us know about the banana bar. Is that Andrew Weil on the package? I love him.
October 14th, 2008 at 9:55 am
Hope you feel better day! Sending you some sunshine!!!
October 14th, 2008 at 10:43 am
Sorry to hear the mood isn’t so cheerful in Heatherland this morning
Traveling that much without exercise and quality food will have that effect, for sure. I hope today goes better for you.
But on the bright side, look at that bag of clothes you’re giving away! That’s going to make somebody’s day much brighter! Go you!
I think you’ll find that banana manna bar tastes A LOT like a Larabar. Especially given that the ingredients list is almost the exact same.
October 14th, 2008 at 11:04 am
Hey Heather we have all been there, do something special today, pretend like it’s friday and buy yourself a treat:) That’s sometimes works for me.
October 14th, 2008 at 11:08 am
Hi, I <3 your face =P
October 14th, 2008 at 11:11 am
Sorry you’re in a slump. Hope you feel better soon!
I know how you feel about the exercise! I need to get back on that wagon!
October 14th, 2008 at 11:12 am
Hey Heather, hope your day picks up!
October 14th, 2008 at 11:31 am
Oh man do I know those kinds of days. I get so cranky when my schedule gets thrown off. I love travel but being out of my normal routine definitely effects my mood. Hope your day picks up Heather!
October 14th, 2008 at 11:37 am
Ugh, I hate that northeast traffic
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(And driving in general is icky to me, so I’m giving you lotsa sympathy!!!)
October 14th, 2008 at 12:51 pm
wow! i hate driving!! or riding. and being stuck in the same position for so many hours. BLEH. I’m sorry! You need a break!! I hope some time this week you are able to relax and recover a bit. Im such a grouch when I don’t exercise or eat well too.
Oh and I think you’ll enjoy that Banana Manna bar. It’s pretty good.
happy tuesday Heather!! Hope you feel better!!!!!
October 14th, 2008 at 1:12 pm
Heather, can I give you a bloghug? I understand. I really don’t think our bodies or minds can sustain high levels of joy for long periods. So we have to hit the funk sometime!
Your life sounds mildly exhausting right now. I hope you get some self-care in sometime soon!
October 14th, 2008 at 2:51 pm
Sorry about your grumpy day! I was like that yesterday.
October 14th, 2008 at 4:03 pm
I feel the same way when I don’t have enough time to prepare for the week. I feel absolutely awful if I can’t exercise. “Stale” is a good way to describe it.
October 14th, 2008 at 4:52 pm
Sorry about the bad day. Tomorrow will be better
October 14th, 2008 at 5:34 pm
it’s completely ok to have a pity party once in a while – it’s one of the things that keep us sane, i think!
great job for cleansing your closet
i am feeling entirely sluggish and horrible due to lack of working out the past couple of days – i feel your pain. hope tomorrow is better for you
October 14th, 2008 at 5:41 pm
It’s hard to be a one woman show and create create create. Don’t feel like you’re alone- in fact- KNOW that all of those teachers in your school struggle with the same feelings. All the time. No matter how long you do this Monday morning anxiety is real and tangible. I had a HORRIBLE day today after the long weekend.
But, like you said, it is one hundred percent better than feeling unsatisfied. Go teachers!
October 14th, 2008 at 8:55 pm
Thank you for spending time w/us. Grandma always would ask “how is Heather”. She was amazed of how you would drive back & forth by yourself, such a long way. So I know she would have appreicated it. I am sorry that the traffic was so bad. Get some rest & do something nice for yourself. You will feel better tomorrow. Have a better week!
October 14th, 2008 at 9:24 pm
ice cream cone hands rule!
aww marks mom is really nice!
October 14th, 2008 at 9:35 pm
I hope you get some sleep tonight and get to relax! Traveling takes a lot out of you, especially under those circumstances!