For the past five days I have been the hungriest person and pretty much unable to get enough to eat! And I know it’s real hunger and not boredom or nervousness because I’ve really been trying to pay attention to that. I know we’ve all been there for a day or two, but five days! Hmph.

This hunger has meant a lot of snacks. Today I had the Organic Mmmaple Pecan Granola Bar that Nature’s Path sent me. This was basically a cookie in the shape of granola bar and it was soooooo yummy. I almost cried when it was gone.

I also quenched some serious thirst with this Agave Mate. Such a tasty mate!

After school I went to the gym for a bit. I planned to run, but after 1 mile I was just not feeling it. Instead I hopped on the treadmill for 30 minutes before doing something very, very naughty …

I broke my self-imposed market ban today. You see, I had to go to Trader Joe’s for a friend and I justified picking up a few things for myself for two reasons: (1) I will not be here to go food shopping this weekend (super psyched to drive to Mass. in a runaway Prius); and (2) I don’t remember right now, but there was a good second reason.

This is what I picked up for me:

I often get agave there, but this is my first time with the maple syrup. Has anyone ever bought the maple syrup & agave mix from Trader Joe’s?

The reason I banned myself from the market was because I was “running in” to grab “one or two necessities” and coming out of Whole Foods down $20 – $30 a couple times a week. No bueno for the wallet. I learned my lesson and will try my best to restrict my entry into food stores to once a week.

For dinner I warmed up some frozen Vegetable Pesto Soup. I love the parsnips in there!

About half way through I decided this was not going to cut it, so I toasted up an Ezekiel English Muffin & topped it with Earth Balance.

And after that I was still hungry so I made some dessert oatmeal with a little Trader Joe’s Roasted Flaxseed Almond Butter.

Oh please insatiable hunger, go away!

Teacher Question: I am planning a field trip and would like to know: what’s the best and/or worst field trip you ever went on?

Earlier today I had the Sunny Hemp Granola Bar that Nature’s Path sent me. I was impressed by the flavor and size of the treat. It was chewy, thick and so very tasty. It had a wholesome hemp and seed flavor, but also a hint of something sweet and butter.

It reminded me of something, but I couldn’t decide what. Then it dawned on me … it reminded me of an Original Glo Bar! Of course Angela’s bars of handmade with love so they are fresher tasting, but they are definitely similar.

For dinner I made something I love, in cold salad form - Peanut Noodles. This time I used regular old fettuccine because I had no buckwheat noodles on hand and I am still banned from the super market. I  made this Sunday so tonight was just pulling it out of the fridge after yoga.

In yoga tonight the message was clear – let go of what you are holding onto. It’s wonderful and great to have goals (and that’s the don’t give up part of the sutra we learned about), but forcing things or saying “I’ll be happy when … ” is not the way to be.

We had to picture something we were holding onto at the beginning of class and then at the end, we had to cut the cord.  I pictured lots of things.

• As I’ve mentioned I have this hang up about failing and “the old me,” but I know intellectually that both feelings are silly.
• The idea that I need to lose these extra pounds I’ve gained to be happy is something I’ve been holding onto.
• I am often disappointed in people who do not act the way I think they should or the way I would. I need to let go of those expectations.

These are just a few; I hold onto a lot! Over the last couple of months I’ve made a lot of progress with this and am happier than I have been in such a long time. It’s not that I’ve let go of those goals (never give up), but I am not obsessing on them (but let go). It’s important to be happy now with the way things are now.

What are you holding onto? Maybe you don’t want to answer here, and that’s okay, but can you let go of it in your life.